a shadow passing on

I believe i am at the end
again i feel the sorrow that i remember from my dark days
it creeps back into my alone life
the life that has no permanent members
i am alone
no one holds fast or true or dear
all that they can do is feel my hand slowly slide out of their own
slip slide away until only the fingertips lose contact
that final electric feel
i am further and further away like the sinking stone
it is better this way
this is what i planned
no pain for those i truly love little as possible only a lite twinge by the time im gone
i pray that the wont remember a thing
but alas my success has left me in the final moments of my life bitterly alone
like an old man hating all because he has nothing left
i feel that i have finally have no more ties that finally i am dead to the world
and Ive chosen to be
now god please allow me to wander off into the desert and die
die the quiet death that i have been longing for all these years
from that first moment that i wished i could die
in the shower
crying where the tears would blend with the waters flowing all over me
so it is, the end of the story
no glory
no hero coming back to save you
to make your dreams come true
no love
only a small service
only a few tears will count
only a few memories shinning through
thank you god
thank you for making me pay for my sins in this life
i pray that a little red sliver of me will stay in the hearts of all of those that truely loved me.
goodbye my sorrow of a life
I cant hear, but i hear you calling, I'll come back for you.